In order to master this competency, I had to do something that is very hard for me: ask for help. I am the kind of person who likes to think she can handle everything all the time. My dad has often warned me, “don’t burn the candle at both ends.” However, I am stubborn and like to take on as many challenges at once, and still expect perfection from myself every time. This is something I am not too proud of, since I know it is an unhealthy way to look at things. This competency is demonstrated by having or seeking out appropriate knowledge and expertise in order to formulate the strongest solutions to emerging problems and/or situations. In doing this, I am required to admit my flaws and find answers. The decision making process is not always black-or-white, and that also creates problems for my perfectionist attitude.
This year as a Leadership Consultant, I have had time to work independently and collaborate with my team. I have also been challenged in my classes to work on very reflective assignments as well as group projects. Making informed decisions plays a role in all of those situations, and it starts with having the most appropriate knowledge. In classes, this is simple, I refer back to my readings or ask my professors to elaborate on topics. In the LEAD office, I have had to try extra hard when it comes to reaching out for help. I have learned to lean on my fellow LCs along with our Graduate Assistant, and members of our professional staff. Lucky for me, everyone in the LEAD office wants to see me succeed. I have been very grateful to my peers and mentors in this office for all their assistance and guidance.
I have worked on another aspect of this competency during this year as an LC: taking responsibility for outcomes. During projects and planning where I feel that I needed outside support, it has been up to me to swallow my pride and as for help. Doing this has always resulted in me feeling much more confident about my decision-making process and problem solving abilities. Then, it is my responsibility for any outcomes that arise. I feel very supported and enjoy supporting others in the office as decisions are made and tasks become completed. This competency has challenged me and also really helped me grow into someone who is less afraid of reaching out for help.